Bke pov

  Looking at the state of Lappnd who suddeered the room , I khat something serious had happened . Her wet , torn and dirty , blood-stained clothes bore the marks of fight, her bnk expression with those fog-lost eyes , sigo me her curreal state . Without thinking , I wao approach her and help but Lappy suddenly sp my hand .

  Before I even had time to realize what had happened Lappnd already grabbed my neck with her strong grip . Looking into her eyes I saw shrunken pupils in her bloodshot eyes . Lappnd's breaths were uneven causio growl as air passed through her ched teeth .

  Whatever happened , I could sehe fatigue in her grip on my neck . Because even though her nails dug into my skin , causing me pain in the process , I knew very well that Lappnd with her full strength would have been able to simply rip out my ehroat , and even my aura would not help with that . My aura at least prevented my neck from being directly crushed or twisted , but Lappnd's strength was enough to e .

  Being in a sudden shod panic caused by Lappnd's behavior , I let her gain the upper hand in pushing me back , but immediately after that , before I fell over , I subsciously hit her in the face with all my strength . And to my surprise my ha ance when it smashed into Lappnd's , cutting her lip in the process .

  ' I actually ........ I hurt her ? '

  I think looking in shock as Lappy after that one blow , let go of me and staggered backwards with wobbly steps , eventually hitting her back against the wall , which she then leaned on . Lappnd anting even louder as the blood from her lip dripped onto the floor along with her saliva . Looking at her weakeate I felt terrible about what I had done . But everything that was happening now was so sudden that I was not able to think , especially since Lappnd had also hurt me .

  " Lappnd , is everything okay ? . "

  I say worried. Yes I know that Lappnd attacked me and caused a threat to my life however ....... I already hurt her once when she was weak . I deal with her now without using direct violen her . If she forces me I will knock her down and hold her like my mother always did .

  Lappnd : " HaHaHAhHAHAHAHAHA I will kill you ....... I hate you ......... Hahahaha......... I hate "

  Said Lappnd in a brittle and quiet voiterspersed with her ughter , which like her voice was breaking down . Looking at me with tears in her eyes Lappnd wiped the fresh blood from her lip then pushing away from the wall she started limping , with visible pain , towards me .

  Lappnd: " You had to ....... You had to destroy it all ? My only hope for a peaceful and normal life ?????? For the first time I was not afraid to get attached to someone ........ I wasn't afraid of beirayed ......... But you had to HaHaHAhAhaHAha "

  Hearing these words ing from her mouth , wihch were sobbing with pain , I froze . Giving Lappy the opportunity to hit me with a perfect hht on the . That one perfect punch despite the aura knocked me off my feet . After the blow I felt a sudden pain on my which made me stagger backwards with disorientation and ringing in my ears , eventually stumbling I fell with my butt on the bed . However, Lappnd due to her own strength and instability also sank to the ground .

  But it was , this blow that made me realize the strength and precision that remained in Lappnd's punches , while showihat even with my protective aura , holding Lappnd , without hurting her or myself would not be so easy . Supp myself with my hands behind me , with blurred vision , I sand struggling to get up from the floor , but the moment my visiouro normal , I sand sobbing , with her hands supp her body above the ground .

  Bke : " ........ "

  I could not say anything , so I silently stood up and wao go over and help her , but Lappy suddenly broke from her position and stood up high enough to grab my right hand , then with her help she pulled me down at the same time pulling herself higher up . I could not react to this because I had to use my own strength to make sure I did not fall to the floor . But Lappy grabbing my other left hand , thus blog my only defense , opened her mouth wide with the iion of biting my throat .

  At this emergency , I panicked and using my strength I pulled my left hand out of Lappnd's grip , thus putting it in front of her mouth . The moment Lappnd's teeth closed oer part of my hand , I felt a sudden , throbbing and intense pain in my hand . This pain was s that I did not evehe moment when Lappnd pulling my hair caused me to fall to the ground with her .

  Taking a position above me Lappnd did not stop biting my hand . If not for Lappnd's tired state , I'm sure I would have lost that hand . But looking at the fact that Lappnd's mouth pletely closed on it , causing intense bleeding I knew I had to be careful . Sitting on my stomach , Lappnd tio hold one of my hands in her mouth , which I used to push her head back . At the same time my other hand , fought against Lappnd's strong grip trying to break free .

  However , seeing the movements of Lappnd's other , free hand , I agaihreatened . But I did not let myself get carried away by my emotions . I could have pushed her away or simply used more force to win against her . However, I didn't want to hurt her . But this decision gave Lappnd enough time to put her free hand on my face pressing my head to the ground . Then Lappy with her head , in the mouth of which was still my hand , start pulling back .

  Bke : " Lappy !!!!!!! I beg you , stop !!!!! You will tear my hand off ....... I'm sorry ............ Fuckkkkk ........ it hurts .......!!!!! "

  I wailed in pain , feeling Lappnd slowly tear off part of my hand . But to her ck of rea , my body feeling the intehreat , with intense force , pushed the weakened Lappnd off me . And then sitting down oomach , with my hand still trapped in her mouth , I pushed , with the same hand , Lappnd's head to the floor just as she did me . And then pulling my right hand out of her grasp , I caught her hand pushing it against her chest , which was rapidly falling and rising signaling Lappnd's breathing pattern .

  Of course Lappnd used her free hand to grab my neck , but her single small hand no longer impressed me . Feeling Lappnd's teeth cmp down even harder on my hand I ched my teeth in pain . Looking into Lappnd's weeping eyes I saw them shih a silver light , they were no longer as clouded and mad as before however the fury , anger and hostility flowing in them was eveer than the one she had always shown to Adam . And I guess that hurt me so much that I even stopped feeling the pain in my hand . Oher hand I uand her.

  ' I love her a again we do it ........ No ...... it's me doing it again . Lappnd never defended herself against me even when I attacked her . I hurt her then but she did not defend herself . And I am fighting with her ......... Again hurting her in the process '

  Thinking about this I realized how these situations were simir . And how my behavior was different from Lappnd . At that moment I wao let go a Lappnd do what she wanted. But Mom's words were the only motivation to keep trying to stop her .

  ' I love her , I hurt her , I betrayed her , I abandoned her ........ I do not deserve fiveness and her feelings . That's why even whees me and wants to kill me ........ I will tio love her and that's why I won't let her kill me , it will be too easy and too fast for me as a punishment . '

  With this determination, I drend's hand from her chest closer to her side, so that I could push on that hand with my knee, immobilizing it. Then with my free hand I proceeded to try to free my hand from Lappnd's mouth. Her mouth was like a vice so out of desperation I hit Lappa's head on the floor to make her lose sciousness . This hurt me more emotionally than physically but I couldn't let Lappnd hurt me , for my mother's sake .

  Feeling this Lapp go of my throat and instead put her hand on my face , trying to hurt me with her nails . I shook my head and avoided her attempts to poke her fingers into my eyes , nose and cheeks . There was a stalemate between us, which I was going to use to tire her out, but Lappnd's growing irritation and anger fueled the madness in her eyes and after just a moment I felt her strength increase as her legs began to lift her hips, on which I sat , making me fall forward. Lappnd took advantage of this , releas my hand from her mouth, only to release her hand from under my kh a quient and then to take my neder her armpit, log me in a triangur lo the ground.

  I say closed because this position was unfortable for the two of us . My face was unfortably close to the ground , and Lappnd herself also had no ability tle me like this , which made her ght to crushing my neck . I wao do a flip to the side to somehow get away , but Lappnd's legs ed around my hips like a snake . At that moment panic , fear and a sense of crisis momentarily eclipsed my passion and guilt f me to ch my teeth .

  'I'm sorry but you forced me ' .

  I think knowing that I have never been a person good at fighting on the ground , so Lappy who is profit in fighting forced me to gather all my strength to prop myself up with my healthy hand hard enough , so that I could send a few blind blows with my injured hand towards her .

  Lappnd: " I am not your property..... I am not y ....... I trusted you by showing my own weakness ........ I shielded you with my own body from this world ......... I showed you my bad you used it to stab me !!!!!! ........ And all this for this asshole , in what he is better than me !!!!! Why , my feelings aio nothing ......... !!!!!!."

  Lappnd screamed with pain and anger . While I all this time , iually hit her in the face . Of course I was in pain both physically because of the wound on my hand , aally because of what was happening . However , feeling the aura around my neck slowly weaken thus increasing the tension in my neck muscles , I ged my aim and began to hit with my elbow the area that appeared to be Lappa's abdomen . Which gave some relief to my hand . However , Lappy did not remain unrespoo my attacks , when suddenly a powerful blow struck my side .

  As a person who avoids getting hit in a fight , Lappnd's blow made me momentarily lose feeling in my entire abdomen , an unbearable tingliion bined with pain that almost made me vomit put me in an adrenaline-filled state . As I and my body khat two more such blows , bined with the situation around my neck , would finally exhaust , thus brake my aura which would allond to easily kill me . So I forced myself to keep hitting her despite the pain .

  And then suddenly Lappnd's sed strike on my ribs took my breath away , fortunately as if by some miracle my elbow hit a point on Lappy abdomen . I felt that my elbow hit a small point harder than her normal skin . Was it her bone ? Or something else .... Eventually it made Lappnd wail in pain and cry , giving me enough freedom from her grip to break free .

  Moving away from Lappnd I stood up and leaned on the bed . Looking at my bitten hand I saw a nasty wound . I don't know how deep the wound is , But Lappy for sure bit me all the way into the white bone , which I could see through the bleeding wound. This sight made me gasp , in a panic I looked at my Gambol Shroud which was lyio Lappy bdes oher side of the bed ......... I could have quickly reached for it , however my heart stopped me from doing this stupid thing . I khat when I grabbed the bde , even without the iion of killing Lappnd........ I will repeat the same mistake I have already made .

  ' Everything that is happening now ........ I caused it myself ......... When I grab the bde ......... I might as well give up my dreams . '

  With this thought I looked back , only to saing up again . Her breathing was heavy , stubby and slow , just like her movements . Holding her abdomen , she looked into my eyes showing me what I had caused . A cut and bleeding lip , eyebrow above the right eye and bleeding nose . Seeing Lappnd walking towards me in pain , I turned around to finally meet the situation I myself helped create .