Intro Song: / Mundo - IV OF SPADES
I'd...
I'd never thought...
I'd ever fall for a boy...
...
Just like you...
Jisei...
...
I...
Would never have thought...
T-that...
...
I'd...
Feel...
S-so...
...
So happy...
In my entire life...
...
It's thanks to you...
Nobody...
But you...
.
.
.
Such breathtaking colors swallowed the sky...
The sweat dripped from brows...
Knuckles...
Cracked...
And bled unto the pavement...
The lone figure stood there...
Struggling to keep moving...
Struggling to even...
Walk a single more step...
Forward...
But such rush of the wind-
Warmth spread all over...
Her face twitched...
Seeing his eyes-
It was more than words-
Could ever say...
She...
Understood from that moment on...
...
That she didn't need to keep fighting...
Alone...
Anymore...
The breeze was chilling-
To her...
This moment...
Was a turning point...
For her...
And she hoped...
Deep inside of her heart...
"J-jisei...?"
"Hmm?"
Their embrace kept on for minutes on end-
Her heart longed for this...
For so long...
Too long...
She laid bare-
Her gaze into his...
The atmosphere was something else-
Something else she hadn't felt in her entire life...
...
In my whole life...
I always had to...
Keep on a tough act-
Such reality of this world...
Made it so...
Like that...
Nobody really understood what I felt-
Why I felt so...
So...
Empty...
Deep inside...
For so long now...
Everything in this world...
Just felt so shallow to me...
Everything was just one goal after another-
One dream that lasts for only so long-
Until it's time to find another...
What is the use of such meaning?
Of such effort?
...
Only for it to go away?
I don't really know why I felt this way...
Maybe-
After all of the gossip-
Girls my age kept on obsessing over-
Kept on...
Blabbering about -
As if that's the only thing their measly lives could ever center around on...
I kept looking deep inside of myself...
What did I really want?
...
I...
I-I...
Didn't really know...
I kept on searching for it...
Unironically...
What this feeling-
Of such emptiness...
Would lead me to...
Who knew?
...
Heh...
I'd turn into this...
My hands...
Filled with so much blood...
The very rush of blood to the head-
Adrenaline...
It was the only thing I looked forward to-
Everyday where I would go and prove myself-
To some useless bastards who think they were so much better than me-
So tough?
So rough?
HAH!
I showed them what real strength was like!
Or...
So I thought...
At the time...
I baid arms and beat up so many-
I couldn't even count how many they were anymore...
...
A punch there
A lunge there
A kick there
A snap
A crack
A dodge
A curse
A mark
A BLOW TO THE HEAD
GOD!
IT FELT SO EXHILARATING TO KEEP DOING
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!
I FUCKING LOVED IT!
WHAT A BUNCH OF WEAK LITTLE MEN!
MEN!
BWA!
MERE ELEMENTARY KIDS!
COMPARED TO ME!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHA!
...
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And yet...
And yet...
I looked around...
Every nook and cranny...
This feeling...
Of superiority...
Never really did last...
And then it hit me-
...
I just stood there on the dark alleyways of Shinjuku-
Such drunk dumbasses that I kicked to the stomach too hard...
I guess?
I didn't even need to try that hard anymore...
But I really didn't know why...
With a clasped can of beer in my hands-
I drank it all in one go-
The fizziness of the refreshment filled my throat-
But just like that drink-
Just like the brawl I just had...
I really didn't know why...
But...
But...
I was...
...
I was sobbing so hard...
I could've died right there and then...
...
I stared at the blinking lights of the bar signs and clubs-
The ringing music of city pop from the glory days-
Of aging millennials past their prime who sang their heart out that very night-
...
My head was glued to the moon-
A longing that felt so familiar-
All too familiar-
My heart...
Throbbed so hard...
I grabbed my chest-
I...
Always hated this feeling-
I wanted to rip my heart out-
Right there and then...
The stars shined so clearly-
Unlike my watery vision-
All blurred...
And...
Unsure...
Right there and then-
I questioned myself-
If I was so much better than those I ridiculed in my own head for so long-
Such gossip-driven women-
Such hedonistic men-
And their pathetic practices to prove their-
"Manhood"
UGH!!!!!!!!!
And yet...
And yet...
...
I was-
No...
I am no different from any of them...
Am I?
...
The rain started to pour down-
As if it was on cue-
To follow the mood of my ever-shrinking heart...
My eyes-
My head-
My gaze...
Never left upon the moon...
The rain...
Showered me...
My sorrow of such a realization...
I thought...
Wasn't it too late?
Isn't it too late?
...
To realize this...
When I've done so much wrong...
Just to feel something...
Just to be able to...
Somebody...
And now...
Look at me now...
My head finally dropped ever so low-
Turning to my heads-
Filled to the brim with the mixed fluids of blood that wasn't mine-
Of the remnants of my drinking spree-
Of...
The rain that felt...
I don't even know anymore...
From that moment on...
I...
I...
I even hid my own morality and humanity behind...
Why?
...
Even that I wouldn't know...
I just did...
I guess...
That's...
That's why…
/ Huminga - Zild
"That's why..."
"Jisei..."
"Who knew...?"
"You were the missing puzzle piece in my whole life..."
"Who knew..."
"All I ever needed was..."
She went in and kept close to him-
Their faces and noses grasping and touching-
Their breath on each other's skin-
"Was a boy like you-"
She went in...
...
For the kiss...
Their lips parched and intertwined-
They shared both their heat and breath-
Taking and giving...
All at the same time...
Her heart fluttered-
Along with his...
The current washed all over them-
Sharing in the moment-
Basking in it-
She-
She let go...
And upon staring at him once more...
It was sealed...
"Oh Jisei-kun"
"You're mine now..."
"And I'm all yours..."
"Never forget this..."
"All right?"
Jisei hadn't felt this either-
This was something else-
It felt like...
True love...
...
How could either of them tell?
It was a feeling...
It...
Was love after all...
A love...
That will surely last forever...
And so...
...
It did...
…
/ Dilim - Zild
I didn't even count all the weeks-
We just kept on going-
As if we knew each other-
All our lives...
Through thick and thin...
Everywhere we went...
Through wide-angled streets I used to walk through alone-
To footbridges high enough to show a huge portion of the city-
It...
It was shared between us...
I...
I know I keep saying this...
But...
"I never knew this was..."
"What it was like..."
"I didn't know..."
I went closer...
To his side...
Putting my arm in between his...
Whispering in his ear-
Sweet nothings-
"Jisei-kun~"
He smiled so sweetly-
It could melt the ice caps of any mountain top...
Jisei just hummed and grasped my hand tightly...
Rubbing it-
Ahhh...
It made my heart throb...
Is this what it's like...?
...
To be in love?
Even...
Small moments like these...
Where all we did was walk and walk and walk on...
To wherever our hearts desired...
It...
Was all I could ever dream of...
I never even knew...
This was what I wanted in the first place...
And all it took...
Was him to change everything...
I looked over to the side of the bridge-
The view-
Forever changing...
With this new perspective...
It...
It never looked this beautiful and lively before...
What is this feeling...?
Is this...
What it's like...
...
To be alive?
...
"Finally..." I muttered under the coming coldness of the night approaching us
"Finally what?" Jisei asked, his voice still like music to my ears
Sheesh!
I'm turning into more of a girl...
Thanks to you...
"Nothing..." I said with a smile
His eyebrows raised slightly-
And with his own gleeful look
"Yeah yeahhhh"
"Come on now, let's go get something to eat!"
I hummed in return, my body surging with a weird amount of newly found energy
The sun had set around us-
And as we went on walking to the nearest place for some grub-
The city lights slowly all went flickering on
In response to the ever coming night-
The moon in plain view
I stared at it once again
With my heart also in tandem with my thoughts...
I sighed...
In relief...
In gladness...
...
It's thanks to you...
For hearing my prayers...
Thank you...
For everything...
...
Moon...
...
"Manaka-san"
"Yeah?"
We had suddenly stopped in our tracks
We were right in front of the Shibuya crossing
Waiting to cross over to the other side
Lots of people gathered all around us
All busy with their own lives-
But that didn't matter...
All that ever did...
Was him...
And me...
"Please promise to me..."
"You won't ever fight..."
"Got it?"
His face...
Was for the first time...
For me at least...
So serious...
My throat had suddenly gone dry...
And so did my lips...
I licked them...
And gulped upon hearing this...
And for the first time...
Ever...
I...
Feared a man...
Not because of their pure brute strength...
But because...
This one man...
...
Him...
Jisei...
...
Had tamed me to the point...
Of fearing his lack of presence...
Of him...
Getting upset with me...
Of him...
Disapproving...
Of my old ways...
I...
I never really thought they were right anyways...
But for him...
I'd...
I'd do anything!
...
Anything...
...
"I promise..."
"So please Jisei-kun..."
"Don't be mad at me anymore"
And for the first time...
Once more...
My voice cracked in front of him...
Showing signs of my own vulnerability...
Showing signs...
Of my own true self...
I whimpered...
But he...
He just shushed me...
His...
Oh sweet sweet voice...
Was my favorite sound in this entire world...
To bask over...
And...
To be with...
Forever...
"Of course I'm not mad at you"
"I'm just worried"
"For you..."
"My love..."
...
Time...
Had frozen still that one moment...
And I...
Didn't really care where we were...
I...
Just had to do it...
I...
He suddenly grabbed my waist-
And kissed me so well-
My eyes were raising on top of my head-
Like I was possessed from the pleasure-
Of his sweet sweet lips...
Even if it was only for just a few seconds-
I knew...
Deep down in my heart-
It felt like it lasted for an eternity...
"My love..."
"My true love..."
"Jisei-kun..."
I didn't realize it-
I was crying in front of him so clearly
...
And...
So did he...
"I love you too!"
"Manaka!"
He raised his voice with such a desperate tone-
He embraced each other
As the stoplight went green, people all around us went by their usual routine-
But for me...
This was the most special moment of my entire life!
...
My true love...
Forever and ever...
By my side...
I'll never be alone...
Ever again...
...
I realized at that one moment...
I didn't need to save anybody...
To love them...
All I had to do...
Was to be with them...
No matter what...
And so I will...
Manaka...
And so you will too...
...
"There's nothing for you to fear"
"As long as you stay right here"
"There's nothing for you to fear"
"As long as you stay right here"
The song blasted in the earphones...
Shared by both-
Who have swore an oath-
Of eternal love...
Forever and ever...
...
And ever...
-To Be Continued-
...
Ending Song: / Dulo ng Hangganan - IV OF SPADES
