Intro Song: Do I Wanna Know? – Arctic Monkeys
I always saw it in her...
That...
Darkness...
Eating away at her...
The way she jokes around...
The way she...
Holds me close...
And yet...
And yet-
She always has this solemn look whenever she looks away into the distance...
Like...
She...
Has too much to hold...
Whatever weight she must be holding...
She doesn't ever tell me...
Koyo...
Why...
Why do you still not trust me?
...
Am I...
Am I not to be trusted...?
Am I...
Just somebody for you to love...
When you're only lonely...?
Am I...
Not IT yet...?
For you?
Do you...
Still believe that you're not worthy of true love?
You can't hide anything from me...
You are...
My love...
After all...
So please...
Koyo...
For us...
Please...
Let go of that pain...
And confide in me...
Let's be one...
Let me...
Save you...
.
.
I never imagined...
I'd ever get with you...
You're so full of sunshine...
Being with you is like walking with nature itself...
So peaceful and...
And...
And yet...
I can't shake this feeling...
That...
I'm not...
Enough for you...
No matter how funny I am...
No matter...
How much I try to be...
The woman you need me to be...
I...
I'm not...
I feel like an impostor...
L-like...
I-I'm...
"I'm not supposed to be here..."
"With you..."
Her figure shivered...
Her feet covered in the cool air...
Of the lonely twilight...
They could be together...
And yet...
They somehow...
Shouldn't be together...
In the first place...
"Why is that?"
"W-why..."
Her face twitched, her shaking hands and little form underneath her comfy sheets...
With the streetlight peering through her windows...
She stared at that very light...
It was fleeting...
Artificial...
It was...
Her love...
...
She sobbed for what seemed like an eternity...
Shaking and breaking...
All in her bedroom...
"Why..."
"Why am I..."
"Like this...?"
She shivered till the end...
Her sheets weren't enough for the coldness...
That slowly crept up to her...
It pierced her...
But it didn't change her...
At all...
All it did...
Was...
...
Make everything worse...
"I need you..."
"Just come here already..."
"My medicine..."
Her little voice sung with such graceful but shattering and fragile beauty...
Her voice would enchant any man...
And yet...
She chooses... to...
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Up to this day...
She doesn't know why...
She doesn't know-
"I don't know why..."
...
Her eyes continued to stare at his...
His pics...
Their pics...
His eyes...
Behind her phone's screen...
Out of reach...
....
So out of reach...
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Arabella - Arctic Monkeys
"You're... sooo..."
"Cute..."
"M-my..."
"L-love..."
Koyo smiled shyly...
Her eyes ever so slightly looking to the side...
With Jisei's strong form...
Never leaving her side...
His eyes...
Never leaving hers...
She blushed madly...
Her red cheeks spreading to her entire face...
She hid her face from him, her cute alluring voice teasing him-
"You really are a wooer, aren't you?"
"My strong prince?"
She winked confidently, her other side revealing herself right before him-
"That's right-"
He pinned her to the wall-
"You're mine..."
"From now on..."
"Got it?" his stare got even more intense, his hands and chest so near to her...
She bit her lip...
Smirking but blushing madly as well
"I'm all yours..."
"So protect me..."
"My darling~~"
They got so close...
They could just undress right here and-
They were immediately interrupted from making out-
They forgot...
They were in public...
"Ahahahahhaahhaha, that's what happens!" she laughed awkwardly, her rage slowly building
"You pervert!!!!!!"
She punched his arm as hard as she could
But...
He just smiled softly
"That's the best you can do?"
"Ughhhhhhh shut up!!!!!!!"
She giggled so loud, that he just shook his head, rolling his eyes playfully
They walked together through the city block...
Their hips in sync...
Their hands intertwined...
Their lips...
Waiting...
To press...
To be...
As one...
To be...
Forever...
Together...
If ever...
That was to be...
At all...
...
"J-jisei-k-kun..."
"Hmmm?"
Koyo could feel his hands so intertwined with him...
The afternoon heat and cool breeze gave her chills... as they walked by the beautiful cherry blossom-filled streets...
And lanes...
She...
Smiled so softly...
"I've got to let you hear t-this..."
She handed him her lone earbud...
With her fingers twiddling with hers...
Her lips trembled...
Her cheeks flushed...
Her eyes...
"Your eyes..."
"Are my entire world..."
Jisei grabbed her earbud...
And wore it...
Koyo couldn't bring herself to look at her...
Inspiration...
Her eyes welled up with hot tears...
And in closing her eyes...
She felt big, strong hands wiping away all her doubts and fears...
Her eyes fluttered...
Blinking over and over again...
Her heart...
Swooned over this...
Her smile was so wide...
Jisei was taken aback by this...
"Well come on then!"
"Let's get going!"
"Hmm hmm~"
Koyo's hum filled his ears with such melodic and feminine allure-
"This song..."
"Is how I really feel about you..."
"My prince..."
Koyo smiled and looked up at him...
His height was both terrifying but comforting at the same time...
She knew...
She could feel safe near him...
Her one and only saviour...
"Oh really?"
"This is too touching and cute..."
"My cute little princess..."
Lia - Zild
They walked and fluttered by the pink-covered streets...
The wind so cool and gentle...
The heat so connected to their memories...
From everything they did...
From those mid-afternoon strolls...
Holding hands...
To eating their cute little picnics by the riverside...
Their breezy and exhilarating karaoke sessions-
Crying their hearts out...
To their romantic candle-lit dinners...
That they dreamt of-
As they were eating their humble little fast food meals-
All that really mattered...
Was each other...
Their presence...
Made them grew ever so closer to each other...
Their cute movie dates...
Their heat so connected...
Their hands never letting go...
As they window-shopped through the districts of their most favorite places...
That they shared together...
Awaiting lips...
And bodys...
His hand moved closer to hers-
"Say ahhhhhhh~"
The spoonful of their shared sundae, the atmosphere of the mid-afternoon haze and heat, partnered with the wide-angle view of Shibuya's main district-
The slight chilling breeze of the soft air-conditioned ventilation of this ice cream parlor shop-
She rolled her eyes-
Pretending her hardest to resist-
"God you're so corny!!!!!!"
His sweet little giggles made her hide away in flustered frustration-
Catching glimpses of what she always loved about him-
Her emotions always bent and was molded into so many shapes-
Whenever they were together...
His sunlit personality and care...
It all felt too...
Too good to be real...
This very moment...
All her feelings from the deep
Swelled from within, a bittersweet recollection-
Of everything they've been together...
All the smiles, all the cuddles...
All the...
T-the...
Their k-kisses together...
She bit her lip over this...
She...
Didn't know whatever this feeling was...?
What was it?
Her eyes once more-
So blue and deep, just like the depths of the ocean that hid her-
Truest feelings...
Was all of what she did...
With him...
I don't want to even think about that right now!
Aren't I happy right now????
What do I have to be so unhappy about?!?!?!
ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!
...
OTHER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A part of her smirked at this...
A shadow warping so much, it looked like ink blots that were swerving and molding i-into...
It dwarfed her entire being...
From within her mind...
What was it turning into...?
I-it...
It's gigantic hand grabbed her whole form, its colors flickering and turning into her own shade of skin...
I-it...
Was her?
Her own eyes stared into her minuscule form...
It's like she was only a millimetre tall...
Compared to this giantess of...
She did what she always had done before...
She arched her back so far into the front...
You could swear she was forcefully trying to break it...
And in crouching downwards...
She hid her face from all of it...
From ever facing it...
And yet it was here...
Staring and towering over her...
Her own self...
Her deepest feelings?
"You already know..."
Her massive voice echoed and reverberated all across her cerebral cortex-
"You already know what this feeling is..."
"NO I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!"
The huge figure bellowed and laughed so hard, it caused earthquakes from the palm of the hand that Koyo was standing on
"You know I won't"
"And do you know why that is?"
In her own curiosity-
She lifted her head up...
Pretending it was Jisei's, who was helping her face whatever she needed to-
But this...
All of that...
Wasn't enough for her...
To face...
THE TRUTH
"Tell me..."
"Who took care of you?"
"Hmmm?"
"Who let you cry into their arms?"
"Who paid for all those dates you seem so proud to have had gone on?"
"HMMM?????"
As much as she wanted to avert her eyes from this...
Just like always...
This time...
She just couldn't bring herself to...
She felt deep inside of her...
She needed to hear this...
And who else but herself...?
Was suited to relay such...
Bitter pills for her to swallow and ponder upon...
"It was all because of him..."
"Your prince..."
"Your knight in shining armor..."
"And tell me..."
...
"What do you think he feels?"
"Not getting the same treatment from you?"
Her eyes...
As if it were made of glass...
Shattered...
Right before her...
Cracks and nothing but that...
All formed in her very lenses...
"Aren't you..."
"A SELFISH LITTLE SPOILED BRAT AFTER ALL?"
"His cute little princess, who couldn't even reciprocate- let alone be his true equal and partner-"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Her vocal cords strained-
Screaming bloody murder at the very thought-
Of such things...
"Shut up..."
She...
Couldn't take much more...
All it took...
Was just one more push...
For her to float in the air-
To turn into smaller little pieces-
Like a vase that was pushed off of the shelf... it belonged on...
"YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE"
"YOU'RE A FAILURE EVEN AFTER EVERYTHING"
"YOU THINK HE'D UNDERSTAND YOU?"
"MAYBE HE WAS JUST HIDING HIS OWN DISGUST OF YOU"
"YOU CHRONIC FEMCEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Koyo broke her voice...
Her broken eyes spilling out waterfalls of the stuff...
Of her own melancholic liquids...
Losing her own will to resist anymore...
A grave mistake...
Because she knew...
She believed everything she had said to her...
She...
After all...
...
Was her...
...
The spoon hovered for about an entire minute...
Jisei...
Didn't register this at first but...
Koyo's face was so unrecognizable...
It warped in the span of that very minute...
It...
Was colder than the spoon and glass that contained their sweetness...
Colder than the very ventilation protecting them from the heat outside...
Colder than...
Winter itself...
It scared him...
It...
Didn't feel real...
It...
The spoon that was held by him, dripped of the melted sweetness that was for her...
It made a huge mess on their table...
She hid her eyes...
Unable to look him in the eye...s
Unable to open up truly...
To let go...
Of what deemed her to be...
Such a failure...
In her eyes...
"Uhhh-"
"Are you alright?"
"Koyo?"
"My dear?"
Her eyes snapped out of it, but this time...
Her own smile, still the same on the outside...
Unsettled Jisei...
For whatever reason...
Something had changed between them...
And as much as Jisei pestered her about it...
She wouldn't budge...
An inch at all...
She always had the same response for such things...
For such questions about her own well-being
"I'm alright Jisei-kun..."
"Don't worry about me, ok?"
And then she would smile sweetly, keeping it all in
Mistaking such inner strength...
To be the right thing to do in such situations...
This...
Would hurt Jisei more than she could ever fathom...
But the thing is...
She didn't know any better...
She couldn't have realized this at the time...
And by now she has...
It's all...
TOO LATE
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Medisina - Zild
In the end...
I couldn't even save her...
I knew she had such insecurities inside of her...
Such dark feelings that just crept up and caught up to her...
By the time we were together...
But no matter how much I shook her and forcefully asked her...
What was wrong...?
She would never ever...
Budge...
She...
Broke us off...
Like cutting the only lifeline that kept her sane...
I...
I could never stop thinking about her...
I must have been so special to her...
Even though I...
Really found my true love...
Right afterwards...
Koyo...
Why did you have to do all that?
Why do you continue to torture yourself?
When you know you deserve...
Everything we had...
Cutting us off...
Must've been the worst thing you ever had to feel...
Right?
One day...
I will save you...
One day...
We will meet again...
I know it...
I can't let you keep doing this to yourself...
My...
One and long lost love...
...
And with that...
She sent me one last message...
It...
Wasn't even really one...
All it was...
Was a link to a song...
It was:
Medisina - Zild
...
My depression started and ended that very week...
When I...
Met her...
I didn't just change her...
She changed me...
Instead...
To Be Continued-
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Ending Song: Why’d You Only Call Me When You’re High? – Arctic Monkeys
