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Chapter Sixty-One: The Morning That Pretended to Be Normal

  Friday arrived wearing a mask.

  The sun rose like it always did. The air carried the same early chill. Students walked with backpacks on their shoulders and coffee in their hands, pretending that routine could protect them from uncertainty.

  But the campus was not fooled.

  XH felt it the moment he entered the main building. The corridors were louder than yesterday, but the noise was not playful. It was the loudness of people trying to drown out fear. Voices overlapped. Phones were out. Screens were being shoved into faces.

  He heard fragments as he passed.

  "They're saying something happened in admin.""My cousin said there's a meeting today.""Stop listening to the forum, it's all fake.""But what if it's not?""They're going to cut the international program.""No, they're going to cut everything."

  The words scraped against his nerves.

  He tried to ignore it, tried to focus on the smell of the building and the sound of his footsteps, but fear had become contagious. It traveled through the air like a virus, settling into everyone's lungs.

  He reached his classroom and paused.

  Kitty stood near the doorway, talking quietly to NC and Anna. She laughed at something Anna said, but the laughter was soft and short, like she could not afford to spend too much emotion on it.

  June walked in from the other side of the corridor, alone, gaze fixed forward. Her hair was neat, her uniform clean, her posture straight. She looked like someone who had trained herself to appear unshakable.

  XH watched both of them at once and felt his chest tighten.

  For weeks, the tension had been slow, simmering.

  Now it was reaching the surface.

  Kitty noticed him watching.

  Her eyes held his for a second.

  Not warm. Not cold.

  Just steady.

  As if she was asking him, without words, if he was going to keep surviving by delaying everything.

  June passed him without stopping, but her shoulder brushed his lightly as she entered the room.

  The contact was small.

  But it felt deliberate.

  He entered after them.

  Dr. Kim was already inside.

  He stood near the front, arms crossed, watching the class settle. The room quieted gradually, students sliding into seats with less chatter than usual.

  Dr. Kim did not open with greetings.

  He opened with a question.

  "Who here thinks their future is secure?"

  No one raised a hand.

  A few students laughed nervously.

  Dr. Kim's expression did not change.

  "Good," he said calmly. "That means you are awake."

  He turned and wrote on the board: STABILITY IS EARNED.

  Then he underlined it once.

  Today's lesson was about homeostasis again. About balance, regulation, and what happens when systems fail to compensate.

  But every sentence felt like it had a second meaning.

  "When the body loses trust in its environment," Dr. Kim said, voice steady, "it starts reacting to everything as a threat."

  XH felt the words land like a stone in his chest.

  He glanced at June.

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  She was writing quickly, jaw set.

  He glanced at Kitty.

  She was listening, eyes focused, but her fingers were still.

  Not tapping today.

  As if she was conserving energy.

  Dr. Kim continued. "The difference between panic and preparation is discipline."

  JP muttered under his breath, "He's roasting us."

  TZ elbowed him. "Shut up."

  Dr. Kim's eyes flicked toward them.

  JP straightened instantly.

  After lecture, Dr. Kim dismissed them early.

  "Lab in one hour," he said. "Be on time."

  Students filed out fast, as if leaving the room would lighten the pressure.

  It didn't.

  In the hallway, a cluster of students gathered around a phone again.

  This time, the headline was bigger.

  A screenshot from the forum, bold text claiming an emergency meeting had been held late last night.

  Someone had typed: HEADMASTER'S HEALTH IS DECLINING.

  Another comment below it: IF HE GOES, WE GO WITH HIM.

  XH felt his stomach drop.

  He pushed through the crowd, not wanting to read more.

  Rumors about the Headmaster had always existed, but they had been distant, abstract.

  Now they felt personal.

  Like a crack forming in the foundation.

  He walked toward the stairwell to clear his head.

  June was there, leaning against the wall, phone in her hand, staring at the screen as if she wanted to break it.

  XH slowed. "June."

  She looked up.

  Her eyes were sharp, but tired.

  "You saw it too," she said quietly.

  XH nodded.

  June exhaled slowly. "My mom called me this morning."

  His chest tightened. "About transfer?"

  June nodded once. "She said if this campus collapses, I'm responsible for wasting my own future."

  XH swallowed. "That's not fair."

  June's smile was bitter. "Parents don't care about fairness. They care about outcomes."

  XH hesitated. "What did you tell her?"

  June stared at him.

  Then she said something that surprised him.

  "I didn't answer."

  He blinked. "You didn't?"

  June's jaw tightened. "I told her I needed one more week."

  XH's heart pounded. "Why?"

  June's gaze held his. "Because if I leave, I don't want it to be because I panicked."

  XH nodded slowly.

  June continued, voice quieter. "And because I don't want to leave without knowing what you are to me."

  The words hit him hard.

  He struggled to breathe for a moment.

  June looked away quickly, as if she regretted saying it out loud.

  "Forget it," she said.

  XH stepped closer. "No. Don't."

  June's eyes flashed. "Then say something real."

  XH's throat went dry.

  He wanted to.

  He couldn't find the right words.

  June scoffed softly. "Exactly."

  She pushed off the wall and walked away, leaving him standing in the stairwell with the echo of his own silence.

  A few minutes later, Kitty appeared near the same stairwell, walking with NC.

  She slowed when she saw XH.

  NC gave Kitty a knowing look and continued down the corridor, leaving Kitty and XH alone.

  Kitty approached slowly.

  "You look like you're about to explode," she said softly.

  XH let out a breath. "I'm fine."

  Kitty raised an eyebrow. "That was a lie."

  He smiled faintly, despite himself. "Okay. I'm not fine."

  Kitty nodded. "I figured."

  She leaned lightly against the wall beside him, leaving a respectful distance between them.

  "I saw the forum post," Kitty said.

  XH's stomach tightened again. "Yeah."

  Kitty's voice softened. "Do you think it's true?"

  XH hesitated. "I don't know. But it feels like the kind of rumor that becomes true because people keep repeating it."

  Kitty nodded slowly.

  Then she said quietly, "Sometimes people pray for stability, but they behave like chaos is entertainment."

  XH looked at her. "That's a good line."

  Kitty smiled faintly. "Don't steal it."

  He laughed quietly, then sobered.

  Kitty's expression shifted.

  "XH," she said gently.

  He looked at her.

  Kitty's eyes were steady. "Are you okay with losing things?"

  His chest tightened. "What do you mean?"

  Kitty hesitated, then spoke with careful honesty.

  "I mean, if the school collapses," she said. "If the program changes. If people transfer. If friendships fracture. If… we don't stay like this."

  XH stared at her.

  Kitty continued, voice softer. "Are you okay with losing the version of us that exists right now?"

  He swallowed hard.

  "I'm not," he admitted.

  Kitty nodded.

  Then she said, quieter, "Then stop acting like time will protect you."

  The words felt gentle, but they cut.

  XH nodded slowly. "I'm trying."

  Kitty sighed. "Trying is fine. But I'm tired of seeing you hurt yourself by delaying everything."

  He looked away.

  Kitty's voice softened even more. "I'm not asking you to choose today."

  XH looked back at her.

  Kitty met his gaze. "I'm asking you not to disappear into silence."

  Before he could respond, a student ran past, shouting.

  "Lab pairs are being reassigned, the instructors changed the list!"

  Kitty and XH both turned.

  The campus was shifting again.

  Not gradually.

  Quickly.

  They moved toward the lab.

  Inside, the atmosphere was chaotic. Students crowded around the pairing sheet, voices overlapping.

  XH pushed forward and scanned the list.

  His name.

  Kitty's name.

  Paired.

  His heart pounded.

  Kitty stood beside him, reading it too.

  Their eyes met briefly.

  No words.

  But both of them understood what that meant.

  Not fate.

  Not romance.

  Just life pressing them into the same space again.

  June entered the lab behind them.

  She scanned the list.

  Her eyes landed on XH and Kitty's pairing.

  Her jaw tightened.

  XH felt the tension spike like electricity.

  Dr. Kim entered the lab, expression calm.

  "Quiet," he said.

  The room obeyed instantly.

  He looked at them all.

  "This lab is about pressure," he said. "About movement. About what happens when a system is stressed."

  His gaze swept the room.

  "Watch carefully," he continued. "Because when pressure rises, people reveal themselves."

  XH stood beside Kitty, hands gloved, lab sheet in front of him.

  June stood a few benches away, posture rigid.

  The day had begun pretending to be normal.

  Now it was turning into something else.

  Something that felt like foreshadowing.

  Like the calm surface of water just before the storm finally broke.

  And deep in his chest, XH felt the truth settle with uncomfortable clarity.

  A tragedy did not always arrive loudly.

  Sometimes it arrived in whispers, in rumors, in deadlines, in silence that lasted too long.

  Sometimes, it arrived as a normal Friday morning that slowly stopped pretending.

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